Mommy has such dear dear friends, without them I dont know where I would be, possibly locked up in a mental ward somewhere. Daddy and sister Addison have been amazing, as well as grandma and grandpa but there is something about a friend, someone who is not obligated by blood or marriage, sticking around through the tough times and offering all they have to give to make my living hell a little bit nicer.
My dear friend Ashley text me yesterday saying she sent out an overnight package, a "gift for you and Dash." I thought "A gift for me and my dead son? What on earth could it be?" It arrived in the mail today, Daddy found it on the front stoop when he arrived home from work. I first opened a beautifully worded letter she had included as well as a card from her mom...such sweet hearts they have. I opened the gift and immediately knew what it was and it was perfect. In "Project 365" I had taken a picture of the cardboard box from the hospital (a formula box no less ugh) that holds all of your things. It depresses me every time I look in there, I feel such immense hurt deep in my heart and every time I close it I feel like I'm suffocating you. Ashley spent a week making a beautiful memory box, filled on the inside and out with thoughts of you. It is something I can look at now and not want to shove into the back of a closet, I can open it and feel like your life radiates from inside. I have no words to describe what a absolutely perfect and heartfelt gift this was, I guess thats the mark of a true friend...they just know. I will work on moving all of your blankies, pictures and papers over into the new box and just know it will help my heart smile again.
I love you Dash, deeper than the seas, higher than the skies, until the end of time.
She included the story I wrote of your birth, now it will never be forgotten <3 style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OBYYlcDXwbM/TCqr2CxfnRI/AAAAAAAAEbs/K8B3_Till_I/s320/DSCF6697.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5488388040850119954" border="0">