Friday, April 22, 2011


Happy 1st Birthday Dashy! We love you sooooooo much!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Worst Day Of My Life

A year ago today we heard the silence of the ultrasound room and saw our son peacefully gone to Heaven. It was the worst day of my life and this last year has been a daily struggle. We are so blessed to have such wonderful friends and family who have helped us move forward when we couldn't do it ourselves anymore ♥ Today I celebrate all of you!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Our Visit With Patches

Patches The Bear arrived on Monday and has been such a joy, doing just what his creator hoped; filling in the missing pieces of our hearts. If you dont know about Patches please visit:

Addison immediately claimed him as her own and I didn't object, it was so cute to see her so excited.

I was expecting him to be a full size teddy bear and was surprised when I opened up his package and found a pocket sized bundle of love! He is perfect though, just the size of Dash's urn which is where he sits tonight. The first thing I noticed other than his size though was that he looked strangely familiar, like I had held him before. Then I realized he is "patched up" just like an "angel bunny" I received from an organization after Dash's death. The bunny has had a place on Dashy's shelf since it arrived and it turns out Patches and Angel Bunny are actually made by the same company...crazy!

Patches arrival time was perfect, this month is hard and I feel Dash everywhere. It hurts my heart and it is definitely in need of some patching. Yesterday Addison and I danced around the house with more joy than I know I have had in a long time and Patches was right in the middle of it, Dash's spirit making me beam :)

Thank you Patches for all that you have done for me and all that you will continue to do for other broken hearted mommy and daddys.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Approaching Curve

16 days until I heard the silence of the ultrasound room. 17 days until I checked into L&D for the most emotionally wrenching experience of my life. 18 days until we said hello and goodbye, your first birthday. Oh I miss you my love. I feel like I held you yesterday, snuggled you close, just you and me in that moment were all that mattered. I love you I love you I love you.