Thursday, June 10, 2010

Letter from a friend

I received an email from a friend last night. It brought tears to my eyes to hear someone talk about me with such love when right now I feel like I am really hard to love...

"Sorry it has taken me so long to write you. Truthfully I still don't know what to say or how to say it. It seems there's never a "right" thing to say when someone is grieving, and loss in any way is something I am not good at. I am however very compassionate so there are a few things I do want to say (because I'm sure no one has said them already lol). My eyes fill with tears when you post pictures or comments about missing Dash. Not just because of the hurt or sadness, but because of the amount of love you convey towards him. You are so strong and such a wonderful mother to both of your children that I catch myself not focussing on the "off" days I have with Payton but treasuring them. Addison and Dash are so lucky to be able to call you their Mom and Alex lucky to call you his wife. You are truly amazing and although you may not feel it sometimes that makes you even more amazing. I think and pray for your family everyday and every night that you get what you're searching for and what you deserve. If you ever need a few hours, a day, or an evening free I would be honored and pleased to have Addison hang out with us. That offer also stands if you and Addison ever want to get out and about as well. I don't expect a response, as that is definitely not the purpose of this. I just wanted you to know that you are thought about and well loved by more people than you realize!"

What wonderful friends I have baby. I only wish we all could have loved you up for years to come.

I received my "cremains pendant" in the mail today and it is beautiful. When we first lost you, I had thought about doing something with your cremains and a friend of mine sent me a site that makes keepsake cremains jewelry. What a wonderful and comforting idea to carry a part of you around with me in a beautiful necklace! It came with a "kit" to transfer some of your ashes from your urn to the pendant and I was very anxious about doing it. It may sound weird but I didnt want to "spill" or "lose" any part of you but with shaky hands I managed to fill my beautiful pendant and look forward to wearing it around my neck. I firmly believe that energy never dies, it just regenerates in different forms. I will now carry your beautiful energy and smile with me every day, thank you so much for being my baby.

I highly recommend this site to anyone who may be interested in purchasing "cremains jewelry":


  1. The letter from your friend is beautiful, and so is Dash's pendant! Now, you can carry a piece of him you always! I love it!

  2. What a beautiful pendant. I am so sorry for your loss. I to lost a baby back in ovt 08 he was 5 months old. This road is so hard. If you ever need to chat or vent or whatever. Im here even just via blog world. Much love and prayers!