It hurts

I hate this...living without you. I should be sitting here feeling your strong kicks in my belly and daydreaming about the day you are born and the life that lies ahead of you. Instead I sit here looking at online support groups and miscarriage blogs and wondering if it was something I did. I want you here with me so badly, I want to snuggle you and keep you warm. I'm in such a fog I dont think will ever end. It hurts to be awake and to think, its hard to love now knowing how quickly it can be taken away. I love you Dash, in a way I never knew I could love someone I only knew for such a short time. My heart, soul and body miss you with every fiber of my being. Mommy is very sad tonight without you...