Today I feel like everything is unfair. Maybe it's the holiday season or maybe I'm just jaded but I feel bitter and just plain sad. Each day I feel the physical pain of what is missing from my life, from my family. I'm stuck between stages 3 and 4 of grief; Anger and Depression. Most days I feel these emotions simultaneously and it just compounds until I'm just incapacitated, wanting to hibernate for weeks. I feel bad for my husband and my daughter, they deserve the mommy and wife that I was, not this shell of a person I've become after losing Dash.
And the waiting game of "when will things get better" continues.