Today was your due date, the day I looked forward to since the moment I saw the + on that pregnancy test. The anxiety leading up to today was paralyzing, just thinking about it got my heart racing and head pounding. But as I woke up today to a flat belly and no baby cooing beside my bed, I surprisingly felt "ok". Today was just another day of missing you, another day of wishing things were different.
I wanted to do something to celebrate the life that you did have and to embrace the new life I have. I took my nursing entrance test this morning and did phenomenally, I knew you would be so proud of mommy for pursuing her dreams. I needed to do something for me today, to prove to myself that my life and my future didnt stop when I lost you...taking that test was the first step. I spent this afternoon thinking of you and did a balloon release in celebration of YOU. Balloons for you, my baby, for the love that we will always have. Hugs, kisses and sweet dreams to you my son.